An advice letter to myself that I’ll never be able to follow.
Maybe that’s just the answer. We’re constantly striving for someone to love us. Constantly becoming someone else and gaining all these stressful never ending thoughts as everyday passes that they don’t. And it’s sick isn’t it? That there is so much more for us in this world, and so many more paths we could explore and conquer but yet we still allow one to hold us away from it all because we desire nothing more then to receive their acception of love. Its being vulnerable at its highest point.
You will fall in love with someone who’s cold and always seemingly pushing you away. When all is said and done, they will be forever known as the one person you couldn’t get to love you. Unfortunately, it will hurt and sting and tear you to pieces worse than the good ones, the ones that chopped up your meat for you and picked out an eyelash from your eye, and brought you a coffee on your break and were nice to your mother, because love often feels like a game we need to win.
But when we face the truth, you can never change a person. You can’t convince them that everything about you is important & that they should fall in love with it all, that depends on them. But you, yourself cannot believe that not every single detail about you isn’t valuable. Every piece of you is what makes you who you are. No matter what you do, its not going to be good enough & that’s a worst thing that we have to believe because people in this world are so greedy with love it absolutely destroys our outlook on everything else in life.
So just do things for you & love yourself, because nobody will truly know you to the core of your heart.
Nobody ever makes it that far.